A Girl Like Me

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Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca

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Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca:

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Katie couldn’t help but smirk lightly at Bianca’s comment. She loved the way the curly headed brunette looked at her. Katie never really felt sexy, or beautiful for that matter until Bianca came along. She made the girl feel wonderful about herself. Feeling Bianca kiss her back she threaded her hands through the girl’s hair, tugging lightly. The heat was building between them and Katie had completely forgotten they were supposed to be picking out something of Bianca’s for her to wear to the dance. The newly black haired girl felt herself being pulled over to Bianca’s bed and she didn’t resist it one bit. She wanted to get completely lost in the other girl, missing the contact. She let one of her hands rest on Bianca’s bare tan thighs as they continued kissing one another passionately. A light moan escaped from Katie’s lips when Bianca bit her lower lip. Katie’s breathing increased and she looked down at the other girl as she hovered above her. “You only read my mind.” Katie said with a smirk as she left Bianca’s lips begin working on her jaw, everytime her lips touched the skin Katie felt shivers run down her spine. Bianca wasted no time, letting her hands explore underneath Katie’s shirt. She tightened the grip on Bianca’s thigh as she felt the girl begin rubbing her breasts. “We don’t need this anymore.” She said, lifting the guy’s shirt Bianca had lent her and tossing it over to Clare’s side of the room, not caring where it would happen to land. Katie straddled Bianca so one leg was on either side of the girl. She pulled her up so they were both sitting. Katie moved the hair out of Bianca’s face and locked their eyes, taking in the moment. Katie was so happy she felt as though her heart just might explode out of her chest at any moment. “You’re wonderful.” She said quickly before she pressed her lips forcefully against Bianca’s again.

Katie let her hands travel delicately up the back of Bianca’s shirt, tracing small circles on her back before she lifted the tight t shirt off of the curly headed brunette completely. She let her lips crash into Bianca’s kissing her with all the passion she could muster up inside her tiny body. Katie was pretty sure as every day passed that she was falling in love with Bianca, but she dare not say anything. Katie hadn’t really heard of Bianca having a relationship that involved strings until this one, and she worried that if she were to tell the girl how much she was falling that it would scare her away. Katie had just gotten the girl of her dreams under her arm and she wasn’t about to let it slip away. The two of them continued making out for a few more seconds, the passion between them was thick in the air. There was no tentativeness in Katie’s movements as she reached around and unclasped her lacy bra. Katie’s eyes grew wise at Bianca’s beautiful chest. “Mmm you’re so attractive.” She mumbled against the girl’s lips. Katie laid the girl down and began kissing down her neck passionately, her teeth nipping the skin lightly. Katie kissed down to Bianca’s breasts and took a nipple in her mouth, sucking gently she let her teeth graze over the sensitive nub before she turned to focus on the other. “I just want all of you so badly right now.” Katie let out through heavy breaths. Bianca was the most beautiful girl in the world to her, and seeing her in all her naked glory was stirring something inside of Katie. She finished with the other breast and moved her lips back up to Bianca’s kissing her eagerly as she pressed against the girl so their skin was touching.

Bianca’s skin burned under Katie’s touch to her thigh, her thigh tingling and itching for more contact from the girl hovering above her. She felt giddy that she could pull a soft sound out of her girlfriend by merely biting the girl’s plump lip. Bianca smirked when Katie’s grip on her thigh tightened, the brunette’s fingertips tracing along the skin just above her girlfriend’s bra. Her eyes widened when the black haired girl took her shirt off, Bianca’s face glowing with excitement and desire for the other girl. The curly haired girl could already feel knots starting to form in her stomach as her girlfriend straddled her waist, Bee’s hands moving to gently grip the girl’s hips. Bianca’s eyebrows rose when Katie pulled her up so she was sitting, the perfect girl still straddling her so they were close enough where Bianca could feel Katie’s heat emanating off of her. The curly haired girl’s fingertips gently traced up her girlfriend’s sides as she smiled gently, staring into the other girl’s eyes and feeling herself getting lost, “You’re amazing, Mats.” Bianca moaned softly against Katie’s forceful kiss, her fingers curling around both sides of the girl and gripping her tightly as she pressed herself against Katie. Her whole body shivered in her girlfriend’s arms as the other girl’s hands slid up Bee’s back, causing a whimper to be muffled against Katie’s lips before air rushed around the brunette and she found her shirt falling to the floor. The black haired girl’s lips were back on Bianca’s, the dancer’s hands moving up Katie’s body till they rested on her ribcage, her thumbs gently rubbing the skin just below her bra. The curly haired girl felt new things flowing through her, for once feeling like she had to take care of the girl in her arms and not just please her because that’s what she was suppose to do. This was a relationship and Bianca was getting used to the new things that came along with having a girlfriend, which was very different from having a boyfriend, even though her boyfriend’s had all been crap and meaningless to her. Katie was a new experience and Bianca’s heart was pounding with excited fear.

Their kiss grew more and more heated as it continued, Bianca’s need for the girl growing stronger in the pit of her stomach. Before she knew it, the black haired girl was working Bee’s bra off, slipping it off her body and letting her breasts spill out freely. Bianca swallowed thickly as Katie’s gaze on her body caused her to become hot, but her words threw any fear Bee had out the window, a smirk appearing on her lips, “Thanks, baby.” She giggled as she was laid back on her bed, Katie still hovering over her as Bee’s hands moved to slowly roam Katie’s bare back. Bianca’s fingers gently curled into the other girl’s skin when she felt the lust filled kisses on her neck from Katie, the girl nipping at her skin. Her body tensed slightly as she felt a warm sensation start to grow between her thighs, a tremor rocking her body as a soft moan floated from between her smeared lips. The other girl made her way to Bianca’s breast and took her nipple in her mouth, a gasp leaving Bee as her back slightly arched from the new pleasurable sensation. Her girlfriend’s mouth moved to her other nipple and Bianca’s hand moved to stroke the girl’s hair as she shivered underneath Katie. A light whimper fell from Bianca’s parted lips, “Katie, you can have all of me… I want you, too.” She breathed out as her heart slammed into her chest like it could beat even faster over the girl she was falling head over heels for. As Katie made her way back up to Bianca’s face, their eyes met for a moment before their lips were attacking the other once again. The dancer almost couldn’t contain herself when Katie pressed her body down against Bianca’s, the skin on skin contact like lighting a fire inside of Bee. Her hands slipped up her girlfriend’s back and quickly unclasped the girl’s bra, slipping it off and through it to the side. Bianca pressed herself up into Katie, brushing their breasts together as her lips roughly moved against her girlfriend’s lips. The brunette’s hands moved to push Katie away slightly, only so Bianca’s hands could move to the girl’s breasts and gently fondle them. Breaking the kiss, she looked up into her girlfriend’s eyes as she continued to softly squeeze at her breasts, “You’re so beautiful, Katie Matlin. And I don’t just want you right now. I need you, baby.” Bianca felt odd and out of place saying that, but her heart was screaming it and she finally felt like she was equal in a relationship rather than being lower than the other person. She could want and feel just as much as Katie could want and feel and that was probably the best feeling ever.

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I can’t get enough of you, Katie. I love everything about...

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~~I can’t get enough of you, Katie. I love everything about you.~~

Mats new look. It’s pretty awesome.

Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca

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Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca:

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Katie smiled brightly, pleased that Bianca had agreed to go along with the whole idea. “Tonight, please. After you explained to me what you wear to bed I’m not sure how much longer I can wait.” Katie said in a sultry voice, but couldn’t hide the eruption of giggles that followed. Katie wasn’t one to be sexy, but she tried. It was much easier for Bianca, someone who simply oozed sex appeal. Katie was more of the ‘cute’ type. It made her heart flutter and slam against her ribcage like it was trying to escape when she heard that the girl would fight for her. Katie had constantly gone through cycles of self hate regarding her sexuality and her overall feeling of not belonging. But here was the most amazing girl in the world saying she’d fight for her. That she wasn’t going anywhere. The sincerity in her voice told Katie that Bianca was being honest. There was nothing else she could want, except maybe being recruited for the national team or graduating as valedictorian. But Katie’s heart was alright, for the first time. It felt full. She was safe. “Who knew my hopeless crush would turn into the only person who’s ever been willing to fight for me?” Katie asked in a sweet voice, an eyebrow lifted. She reached over and squeezed Bianca’s side for a moment, craving some kind of contact but there was only so much they could do with all the hair dye that was present. A smile was playing on the co-president’s lips. Katie noticed the roll of Bianca’s eyes and she shrugged. “Sorry pretty lady, when presidency calls… well you know. But I can get Holly J to take over everything after a while. She doesn’t have to sneak off with Fiona or anything so I’m sure she’ll cover the floor. Besides, Degrassi only did have one president until now.” Katie said with a sigh, pleased that they’d manage to work around her responsibilities and get some alone time.

Katie felt terrible for even bringing the subject up to Bianca, considering it was barely her problem to deal with. Katie couldn’t help but wish the two of them lived in a perfect world where Bianca would feel comfortable enough to be herself. Katie knew the only reason she had even considered the idea was because of what Holly J had done, but in reality she was not that strong. She was still harboring a pill dependency and she had the past of an eating disorder. There were things that Bianca had to learn about her, things that may end up pushing her away. She didn’t want to lose Bianca, and if she realized Katie was a little bit of a handful she may not stay around. Despite the type A life Katie lead, she still had trouble believing she was good enough for the seemingly perfect girl sitting in front of her with comfort in her eyes. Looking into the beautiful girl’s brown eyes, her own strewn with fear and tentativeness. There was no way in the world she could ever ask Bianca to come out with her, considering Katie was less tough than the brave face she put on after Holly J had come out. She was no where near as strong. Bianca had made it very clear she wasn’t ready, and Katie was going to leave it at that. Katie even considered waiting for someone to out her, instead of having to walk out of the closet all on her own. “I’m not ready either I just.. .thought I was. I’m battling in my head you know, one side says do it, the other says not to. I’m not nearly as strong as I led myself to believe and after thinking about it for a second, I’m not ready.” Katie said honestly, not letting go of the other girl’s hand. She got a slightly churning feeling in her stomach when Bianca mentioned her getting a fake boyfriend, shaking her head on impulse. Katie knew she had brought the idea up in the first place but it still made her slightly uncomfortable. The thought of anyone holding the girl in the way she did upset Katie. Unfortunately unlike Bianca, she was one for jealousy. “That wouldn’t work, because you’d have to tell them it’s fake, ergo you’d have to come out to someone other than me…” Katie’s words trailed off as the timer went off and Bianca prepared to wash her hair out. “Besides anyone else being all couple-y with you makes me a little sick to be honest, sorry.” She said quickly, while Bianca continued the process of the hair dye. “Just forget I said anything, okay? But it’s good to know I can talk to you.” She said with a sweet smile.

The anticipation was killing Katie, she just wanted to see the results, but not until the whole process was finished. Bianca washed her hair out in silence, the scent of hair dye filling the bathroom and refusing to subside until she brought out the shampoo. “Mmm that feels nice.” Katie said as Bianca’s fingers worked through her scalp. Bianca sat her up after it was done. “Fineeeee.” Katie said, the anticipation continuing to consume her. “I really want to see it. You’re lucky I let you do this, me being a perfectionist and all.” Katie said with a wink, before recently she didn’t know Bianca was one for doing hair, but she trusted her girlfriend. Bianca snipped away at her hair, putting bangs in the front to add an extra edge. Within minutes the transformation was finally complete, blow-dried and all. Bianca spoke and Katie bit her lip nervously, quickly spinning herself to see the end result. Katie’s lips parted and she left her mouth agape for a moment while she took in her new look. The cut was perfect, and the dark colour brought out the blue in her eyes. The bangs did something for her bone structure and Katie barely recognized herself in the mirror. She stood up and turned around, pulling the girl by the hand towards her. “Wow, you did an amazing job, thank you so much love.” She said in a sweet voice while her fingers snaked around Bianca’s sides. She pressed her lips against the curly headed brunette’s and kissed her passionately, her hands trailing down her sides and landing on her hips. “Finally.” Katie whispered against Bianca’s lips.

A smile crept up onto Bianca’s lips when Katie suggested a sleepover tonight, already looking forward to the night ahead of the two girls, “Tonight it is. I’ll text Clare some kind of lie.” Bianca got her cell phone out and began typing away, sending Clare a text: Hey Clare. I think Katie got me sick, so we thought it’d be best if maybe you stayed in her room and she stays in ours? Just in case, we don’t want to get anyone else sick. I’ll get you a bag of clothes and whatever you need for the night and give it to Paige, Katie’s roommate. No need to worry! Bianca sent the text with a satisfied smile on her lips as she looked back up at her girlfriend, “Done and done.” She gave the other girl a wink, giggling a little and feeling butterflies in her stomach as she thought of the night ahead of them. Bianca’s head turned to look at Katie, her eyebrows rising as a curious look crossed her face, “Anyone who’s been lucky to have you should’ve fought for you, Mats. You deserve that.” Feeling all too serious, she laughed to herself and looked away quickly. Bianca smiled gently as Katie reached out and squeezed the brunette’s side, making her crave more contact. The curly haired girl made sure Katie couldn’t see her when she frowned, wishing they didn’t have to sneak off just to be together, but at least Katie wanted to be with her, that’s all that mattered.

Looking at her conflicted girlfriend, Bianca only wished she could make things better and easier, make the world see both of them as they were and accept them, but that wasn’t going to happen anytime soon. The brunette squeezed Katie’s hand, “You’re not ready, you’re not ready. I have a feeling you’ll just know in your heart when the time is right. You are so strong. You’re strong for putting your heart on the line with me and getting through this. Just be happy that we have each other, everything will fall into place eventually. Give it time, we’re just getting started, Mats.” She gave the girl an encouraging smile, bringing her hand to her lips and kissing it, just wanting things to be okay for both of them. The curly haired girl sighed at the black haired girl’s words, rolling her eyes, “It was just a suggestion. I’m going to come out to more people, once I’m comfortable.” Eyeing the other girl, she smirked and shook her head, noticing the jealousy, “Katie, calm down. Even if I did have a fake boyfriend, I wouldn’t want him. You’re all I want.” Even though Bianca wasn’t big on saying things lovey like that, she felt she had to to reassure the other girl and make her feel better. With a sigh, the dancer caved, “Alright, I’ll forget it. Conversation over.” She held up her hands, showing she was done with the conversation because Katie wanted to be.

The tan dancer bit her lip as she washed Katie’s hair and heard her words, for some reason she sounded sexy to Bianca when she told her that it felt good. Bianca liked making Katie feel good, even if that was just because she was massaging shampoo into the other girl’s hair. The brunette rolled her eyes at Katie’s comment on being a perfectionist, since Bianca seemed to always convince the girl to do things she normally wouldn’t and it was kind of exciting. Bianca watched her girlfriend turn around and saw the look on her face, overly happy seeing how happy her girl looked. She giggled as Katie pulled her closer by her hand, tilting her head to the side, “You’re welcome.. And you’re hot.” The curly haired girl licked her lips as Katie’s hands slipped around her and Bianca followed suit by wrapping her arms around Katie’s neck. Bianca kissed Katie back with intensity, having craved the other girls lips so badly it almost hurt. She shivered under Katie’s touch as the black haired girl’s hands came to rest on Bianca’s hips. Her giggle became muffled against Katie’s lips at the girls word, walking backwards and pulling her girlfriend with her. The dancer moved towards her bed and fell back on it, pulling Katie on top of her, all the while their lips never once broke from a heated kiss. Bianca’s fingers threaded through Katie’s hair as she bit down on the other girl’s bottom lip and pulled back, letting it slip from between her teeth. Her heart was slamming against her chest as she looked up at the girl, “We can pick an outfit out later, right? Cause I really want you right now.” Bianca smirked devilishly before her lips pressed open mouthed kisses to the black haired girl’s jaw, kissing across it and down her neck. As she sucked gently on Katie’s neck, she slipped her hands under Katie’s shirt and slid them up the girl’s body, moving them over her breasts and squeezing them through her bra. Bianca had been craving her so badly that she couldn’t stop herself now and loved feeling her girlfriend’s weight on top of her, the heat of the moment making them feel like the only two people in the world.

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Welcome to Degrassi.: Dead Hand || Bianca & Eli

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Welcome to Degrassi.: Dead Hand || Bianca & Eli:

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Eli shut his dad’s car door behind him before sticking his head through the open window and shooting him a smile. “Again, thanks for the tickets, Bullfrog. They’ll be put to good use.” After exchanging goodbyes with his father, Eli turned from the car and began heading to his dorm room. Since Bullfrog worked at a radio station, he was given free tickets to give away quite frequently. When he had gotten two tickets to Dead Hand, knowing how much his son loved the band, he decided for just this once to break the rules and give Eli the tickets. Bullfrog had picked Eli up an hour before and they went out to dinner together, not only to give him the tickets, but to catch up with his son whom he hadn’t seen for a while. The night before when his dad called him, asking if he wanted a pair of Dead Hand tickets, Eli quickly accepted. Only after he hung up the thought of who he would bring with him crossed his mind. He hadn’t spoken to Adam in a few days, and Eli wasn’t sure if his friend would be busy. Imogen and Fiona weren’t into Dead Hand, and he knew Drew had fallen behind on his schoolwork - the last thing Eli wanted to do was distract the other teenager and bring him out to most likely get wasted on a school night. Bianca finally popped up in Eli’s mind. She had gone with him to their Toronto show the previous year, and when he invited her to this one, she immediately accepted.

Finally, Eli got to his room. He checked himself out in the mirror and decided what he currently had on would do. After grabbing his jacket out of the closet, the teenage boy left a note on the blank page Drew had left his Chemistry notebook open to. Hey, I guess you went out to dinner. I’m going to a concert with Bianca. I won’t be back until late; I’ll just crash in the lobby so I don’t wake you up. Remember, you have a Chemistry test tomorrow. Study! - Eli. He made sure his phone was in his pocket before heading up to get Bianca. As Eli climbed up the stairs, he called for a taxi, using the number Bullfrog had scrawled out onto a scrap of paper for him. Minutes later, Eli found himself outside of Bianca’s room. He knocked on the door twice before leaning against the door frame and waiting for his curly haired friend to answer.

Bianca had been majorly bored lately since, for once, she was caught up with schoolwork and was actually doing really well. She didn’t know if it was just because she was finally putting the effort in or she wanted to impress her secret girlfriend, Katie, since that other girl was way smarter than Bianca could ever be. The brunette didn’t have much to do, she didn’t really have many friends anyways, so she jumped at the chance to go to a concert with Eli. They had hung out before and Bianca liked his company, her excitement for the night was building up. Changing her outfit, she put on a fitted skirt, a red top, and heels before checking herself over in the mirror. The curly haired girl fussed with her outfit, but thought it looked perfect once she added hoop earrings. Her hair was already fluffed to perfection and all she had to do was apply a coat of lipgloss and she was ready for the night to begin.

Walking over to her desk, she looked over all her work, double checking she had everything done so she could let loose tonight and not worry about anything. In all honesty, Bianca had been overly stressed lately. Keeping her sexuality and relationship a secret was eating away at her, especially since it was apparent Katie wanted to come out with Bianca by her side, but the brunette was terrified and knew she wasn’t ready. It was a lot for her to handle when the only person she had to talk about it was Katie, but there was no one else she really trusted, so she kept her mouth shut. Sighing as she thought about Katie, she knew she couldn’t let it ruin her night. Bianca jumped when she heard a knock at the door and almost felt relief that it was time for her to let go of everything and just have a fun night. Opening the door, her perfect smile appeared on her face and she greeted him excitedly, “Goldsworthy! I hope you’re ready for tonight, because I’ve been needing to get out.” Bianca walked out into the hall and closed the door behind her, assuming he had called a taxi for them since that’s what they had planned. As they made their way down the hall and out of the dorm, she looked over at him with an excited smile, “Thanks for inviting me. This seriously means a lot. I miss going out all the time.” Bianca really didn’t do much of anything anymore, especially now that she was in a relationship and almost connected at the hip to the girl.

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Wipe away those Drama Queen tears: xobiancadesousa: Bianca eyed Katie curiously, looking her from head to...

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Wipe away those Drama Queen tears: xobiancadesousa: Bianca eyed Katie curiously, looking her from head to...:

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Katie thought for a moment about a way to work around the whole roommate thing, and still manage to have a sleepover. “Well, I mean you could always just tell Clare you got sick and she should stay somewhere else for the night to avoid catching it?” Katie said with a wink, genuinely curious if Bianca would go for the idea. Katie couldn’t help but try, the thought of spending the night with her girl was too good to pass up. Katie stuck out her bottom lip and put on a pair of puppy dog eyes for a few seconds. “Come on you know you want to.” She said with a slight chuckle. Hearing Bianca’s words while she mixed the dye into her hair ‘caused a fluttering in her heart to begin. It seemed as though the curly headed brunette was at least a little bit protective of her, not wanting anyone else to look at Katie the way Bianca did. Katie lowered her gaze and bit her lip, butterflies going crazy inside her stomach. “Don’t worry, I probably wouldn’t even notice if someone looked at me that way, and they’d never stand a chance. I have everything I could ever want in a person right in front of me, Bee.” She made eye contact with her in the mirror and smirked while Bianca’s smile lit up her already stunning face. “Oh okay, well technically I have everything I want behind me.” Katie said, unable to hide her smile, taking in the simple yet special time spent with her girlfriend. Bianca’s next words made Katie want to take the dancer in her arms and kiss her to death, but making her decision based on better judgment she decided not to, considering the mess it would make. “You have a case of the annoyingly sexy charm there Bianca DeSousa.” Katie said, scrunching her nose slightly. No one else could manage to turn fierce Katie Matlin into a puddle even if they tried.

As the silence fell over them Bianca quickly left the bathroom and Katie could hear the shuffling of her clothing, obviously looking for an outfit. Katie stared at herself in the mirror, the dye darkening on her roots. Katie took a deep breath, the anticipation of the turn out overcoming her. Katie spoke and Bianca quickly reentered the bathroom, a smile on her face. “You have yourself a deal, darling. As co-president I have the master keys so there’s no problem.” Katie said happily, imagining the excitement of sneaking off with her girl for some quality lip locking time. “I just have to make a quick appearance of course and then I’m all yours.” She said with a wink, still wishing she could hold Bianca, but the current state of her hair preventing it. Bianca seemingly took notice of the mood change because as soon as Katie’s smile started to fade Bianca put on some music and began dancing. It cheered the girl up a little bit but she still couldn’t help but wish she could dance with Bianca in front of everyone, hold her, kiss her. It was something she had been struggling with lately, and even used painkillers to cope with it, but she didn’t want to burden Bianca. She knew when the curly headed brunette was ready she’d say so. Katie watched the girl move; her silly dance moves still perfectly in time with the beat, she was always such a natural when it came to dancing. The timer went off and it was time to continue the transformation process. Katie bit her lip and smiled. “Me too.” She said in response to Bianca’s apparent excitement. The two girls sat in silence while Bianca continued putting the rest of the dye into her hair. Once it was all up Katie braced herself, she would no longer be a red head. As simple of a gesture that dying ones hair seemingly was, Katie still felt like she was somewhat stepping out of her comfort zone. Much like she had been during her first few weeks at Degrassi Boarding School.

Bianca lowered the music and stood in front of the girl, her eyes meeting Katie’s with an inquisitive gaze. Katie was always thought of herself as someone who was good at concealing her feelings, but apparently Bianca knew better. She was the only person who could see right through her, and that scared the girl. But at the same time she was falling even harder for the seemingly flawless girl who was now kneeling in front of her. She said she knew something was going on with Katie, and she knew there was no point in fabricating a lie. If they were going to continue this relationship, they had to at least be honest. Katie wasn’t going to lose the girl over pretending she wasn’t weak sometimes. She felt the girls lips press against hers and she couldn’t hold it in anymore, Bianca wanted to know what was truly going on. “I just..” Katie grabbed Bianca’s hand and ran her thumb over the girl’s fingers. “I’m struggling with being in the closet, I guess. After seeing Holly J come out I sort of feel like I’m living some kind of lie. As much as I would love to be able to show everyone you’re mine and walk through the halls proudly, I don’t want you to think I’m telling you this to pressure you. I just..” Katie’s words trailed off and she found it difficult to look Bianca in the eye. “I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be okay with lying to everyone.. And I think it would be so wonderful to have you by my side during the whole thing. I could always come out alone but, us hanging out is suspicious enough and it wouldn’t be hard for them to figure stuff out.” Katie was rambling now, wishing she hadn’t even opened her mouth but now it was difficult to stop. “But I’ll keep it a secret if it means keeping you. I’ll even find someone to act as a fake boyfriend for me. I’ll do anything you want for you to feel safe and comfortable in this relationship..” Katie bit her tongue. “Forget I said anything, I hate burdening you with this stuff you don’t deserve it, you just came to terms with yourself..” Katie fought back the stinging of tears in her eyes, only happy that she hadn’t revealed her whole pill ordeal that took place the night before. “I adore you, and I hope this doesn’t change anything.” Katie said, gripping Bianca’s hand, praying she hadn’t upset the girl when all she ever wanted was for her to be happy.

Bianca thought over Katie’s excuse for getting Clare out of the room and then simply shrugged, “You know my ways of persuasion. I could totally do it. Any night you want.” Looking to her girlfriend, she smiled, actually feeling overjoyed at the thought of being in the same bed as Katie. Hearing Katie’s reassuring words, a smile broke out on her flawless features, feeling her heart grow within her, “I’m happy to know there’s no competition, though I would fight for you if I had to.” Bianca was telling the truth, Katie was too special and too beautiful to ever let go, especially since she had finally just gotten the girl into her arms, she wasn’t letting go easily. Rolling her eyes, she glared at her girlfriend, but had a smirk on her face, “I do have sexy charm, but I wouldn’t say it’s annoying. It works quite well on you, just like I want it to.” Bianca’s eyebrows rose, proud that she could get to the other girl so badly and mess with her head a little, but in the best way possible. As they made a deal to sneak away during the dance, Bianca realized she was dating the co-president. Bianca DeSousa, the girl who pretended she couldn’t care less about anything to do with school, was dating someone who was involved in the school more than anything. They were the oddest pairing, but the brunette was starting to love it more and more, “I’m a lucky girl to be dating the co-prez.” Rolling her eyes and making a face when the other girl mentioned that she had to make an appearance, she just joked around, though she knew she should probably show her face at the event, also. Bianca hoped that her dance moves had lifted Katie’s spirits, though the brunette still was worried about what had gotten the other girl down. Finishing off the soon to be black haired girl’s hair, she studied the girls face and hoped it had nothing to do with Bianca, the last thing she wanted to do was upset her girlfriend.

As Bianca knelt in front of the girl, she made sure to keep her expression open and nonjudgmental. All she wanted was to hear what the other girl had to say and try to fix things so both girls were happy. Bianca’s eyebrows rose in surprise at some of the things Katie said, wishing she had known this before but glad Katie was finally opening up to her. Once the other girl had finished, Bianca’s eyebrows knit together and she shook her head, “Look. I’m not ready to come out and I’m sorry, but I’m not about to hold you back.” The brunette felt this horrible ache in her heart that she was hurting her girlfriend by not coming out with her and not being ready, but there was nothing she could do about that. Looking Katie dead in the eyes, she continued, “If you’re ready, you should come out. Tell the world and be proud. You’re worried about me, so I’ll get a fake boyfriend. No one will suspect a thing.” Squeezing her girlfriends hand in a reassuring way, she smiled, “I’m glad you told me this. Stop being so afraid to talk to me. I’m your girlfriend, Mats. That’s what I’m here for.” Bianca shrugged before the timer went off and she got back on her feet and turned Katie’s chair so her back was to the sink. The brunette thought the sink was large enough for Katie to wash her hair out in. Instructing Katie to lean her head back, the water rushed over her hair and began washing out the excess dye as Bianca moved to the shower and put some shampoo in her hand. The brunette took her time washing her girlfriends hair thoroughly, the only sounds were the water and her music that was turned down low. Bianca worked some conditioner through the other girls hair till she was positive that she’d gotten all she could out of her hair. Sitting her back up, Bianca kept Katie’s back to the mirror so she could surprise the girl, “So I’ll cut it now and blow dry it and then you can see.” Brushing through Katie’s dark wet hair, she grabbed scissors and carefully cut where Katie told her to, making sure the length was even as she went on. Before she blow dried the girls hair, she gave her some bangs in front of her face, thinking they would make her even edgier. Finishing off her masterpiece, Bianca blow dried the girls hair and smiled at her finished product, “Whenever you’re ready to turn around and see it, go ahead.” The curly haired girl spoke giddily, a little overly proud of her work.

Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 16:39:00 -0400

Dresses, Kisses & Hair Dye || Katie & Bianca:

katie-the-matlin:

Katie rolled her eyes at Bianca’s comment regarding her outfit. “Bee, you could be wearing a garbage bag and you’d still be the most beautiful girl ever. Plus, I like you all natural.” She said with a giggle, leaning forward to place a soft kiss on the girl’s cheek. Bianca’s comment regarding her calculated decision brought an unexpected feeling of warmth and understanding to the girl. Yes, making conscious decisions was a huge part of who Katie was. The fact that Bianca had picked up on it instantly and had not been annoyed or irritated by it yet found it likeable was amazing to Katie. Bianca’s last words implied they were in different in that respect. Katie knew Bianca was much more reckless than she, yet they seemed to balance one another out well. Katie would try her best to help Bianca keep her head on, and Bianca would help Katie loosen up. Katie couldn’t help but always take notice every time a positive aspect to their relationship was shown. The more time they spent together, the more Katie seemingly thought they were good for one another, as shocking as it was to the red head. Katie smiled and shifted her eyes downwards bashfully when Bianca said the colour would suit her, she had been a little bit afraid that Bianca wouldn’t find her as attractive, but apparently it was the contrary. “Well, I’m glad you’re going to like it. I’d hate to look anything less than hot for you, my love.” Katie said in a sing song voice, letting a giggle escape from her lips. Katie nodded as Bianca spoke, seemingly knowing exactly what she was doing. Katie had only dyed her hair a few times and Maya always did it for her. Katie would much prefer Bianca do it for her anyways. She actually found the whole thing to be cute, and romantic. Damn you Bianca DeSousa, you turn me into a complete sap, she thought to herself while the feisty brunette went to get her a shirt. Katie didn’t even think twice about the fact that it was a guy’s shirt. As far as Katie was concerned, Bianca was hers for the time being and she wasn’t going to worry about anything or anyone from the past trying to get in the way. Katie couldn’t help but let the image of her perfect girlfriend in her pajamas take over her mind for a few seconds. “Well, I like the sound of that. Perhaps we need to arrange a sleepover or something.” Katie said with a wink, thinking about how lovely it would be for them to wake up in one another’s arms.

Katie felt herself being pulled up to her feet by Bianca, her shirt following. Bianca’s smile still made her heart beat faster every time she saw it. The girl’s hands touched her sides gently and she shivered, Bianca’s face implied she knew exactly what she was doing to the other girl. Katie bit her lip while the brunette leaned down and placed a kiss on her cleavage. “Tease.” Katie said with a blatant smirk on her face as she took the big shirt from Bianca and placed it over her head. “Good to know, I’d hate to loose an ear in the process.” Katie said jokingly. As the curly headed dancer made her way to the bathroom, Katie lingered behind. Bianca’s words bringing a flutter to her heart and smile to her face. Bianca DeSousa wasn’t the type of person to be ‘sweet’ per se, but everything she just said was the simplest yet adorable thing. Katie bit her tongue, knowing how Bianca felt about the word ‘cute’, but that was exactly how Katie felt about her then. Not that she wasn’t devastatingly gorgeous or fierce, but there was something so heartwarming about what she said that made Katie want to giggle like a schoolgirl. Instead, she stood up and followed her girlfriend into the bathroom with a smile. Katie listened intently while Bianca spoke about the hair dye process like an expert. Katie took a deep breath at her question, but before she could nod, Bianca was already working away at her roots. “I’m so nervous. What if everyone hates it?” Katie asked stupidly, quickly realizing the only person’s opinion that mattered was in the room. “Okay, scratch that. As long as you like it I could careless.” Katie said in a sweet voice, making eye contact with the girl through the mirror. They were silent for a few seconds but it was comfortable, Katie was just enjoying their time alone. “You should really wear that red dress you have to the dance. It looks amazing on you. Well, red in general. Although I must warn you Bee, it’ll be a little bit hard for me not to drag you to the nearest empty classroom and have my way with you.” Katie said with a wink. Katie’s mood shifted slightly when she realized how much she would love to walk in with Bianca proudly on her arm, but she decided not to say anything. The last thing Katie wanted to do was have Bianca become frustrated with her again on the whole concept of coming out. Katie would wait, as long as they had one another nothing else mattered as much.

Bianca eyed Katie curiously, looking her from head to toe, she got lost in thought for a moment. She pictured her and her girlfriend lying in bed together at night, innocent and peaceful. The brunette could see it in her mind, Bianca’s arms securely around the other girl as they shared sweet kisses, gentle touches, and quiet whispers in the night till they lulled eachother to sleep. Bianca wanted that so badly that her heart nearly ached for it. Closing her eyes, she pulled herself back to reality before looking at the other girl, “Yeah, we have to have a sleepover. It’s a must. Please.” The dark haired girl’s voice was soft and sweet and she didn’t notice till after, coughing and looking away to hide the still dreamy look floating in her brown orbs. Taking in a breath, she finally brought herself back to the moment and shrugged while she gave Katie a wink, “Teasing is my favorite.” Bianca would have to say she always found joy in being a tease, it was just something she really enjoyed since she got to see all the reactions play on the other persons features. But with Katie, she couldn’t even help herself and it was always hard to control herself around her girlfriend, she barely ever thought about teasing, she just thought about making the almost not red head happy. Continuing to add the mix to her girlfriends roots, she rolled her eyes, “Everyone will love it. But if I see any girl or guy look at you like they want you, I’m going to have to have a talk with that person. No one looks at my girl like that except me.” Bianca’s eyes looked up from the other girls hair and into the reflection of her eyes, a smile lighting up the brunettes entire face, “Well, I’ll love it. I’ll never not be turned on by the way you look. You’re always beautiful and sexy to me.” Bianca admitted, going back to work till she’d finished with the girls roots and let the mix sit. Grabbing her phone, she put on a timer so she knew when to add the color to the rest of her hair.

Letting silence surround them, Bianca moved into her room for a moment to rummage through her things, picking out some dresses, but she popped out of the closest when she heard Katie, moving back to her in the bathroom and smiling. Biting her lip, she smirked as she stood behind her and stared straight into the reflection of her eyes in the mirror, “I’ll wear the dress if you promise to do that. I’ve never been into dances, I’d much rather spend alone time with you.” Watching as her girlfriend’s mood shifted, she got slightly nervous and moved to turn on some music, dancing around Katie and laughing until the timer went off. Bianca kept her music playing and started adding color to the rest of the soon to be black haired girl. The brunettes smile was shining, “I’m getting excited.” As a giggle sounded from her, she finished getting the mix into her hair and ran her hands in the now gooey strands, making sure the color was set and she hadn’t missed anything. Bianca set another timer and pinned the other girls hair up to keep from making an even bigger mess. As time ticked on, she lowered the music and looked Katie right in the eye, “Is something going on? You seemed a little odd earlier, that’s why I tried to cheer you up.” Getting down on her knees in front of Katie, the brunette looked up at the hair dyed girl and sighed, bringing her hands to the side of Katie’s thighs and gently smoothing over them, “You can talk to me. I don’t want my girl upset.” Leaning up, Bianca planted a sweet kiss on Katie’s lips, smelling the hair dye and trying not to scrunch her nose up as she pulled back.

katie-the-matlin: I’m really glad we dyed it. I agree! I...

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 15:10:33 -0400

katie-the-matlin:

I’m really glad we dyed it.

I agree! I seriously love it. Everybody else better love it, too.

I thought you were serious for a second there. I was seconds away from revoking my invitation. Ha, I'll see you tomorrow at seven, DeSousa.

Tue, 03 Jul 2012 01:49:43 -0400

Awesome. Can’t wait, see ya then.

Touché. I'll come by your room tomorrow at seven to pick you up. Assuming we're both going to end up wasted, we should probably take a cab to get there. The tickets are free, by the way. You can thank me later.

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 23:32:53 -0400

Alright, cool. Come on now, Goldsworthy. Me? Get wasted? I am a classy lady. Except I’m totally in the mood to get wasted, cab is a smart idea. Ha, maybe I’ll thank you. We’ll see.

Well if you're going to be Miss Sassy then I guess I shouldn't bother asking you if you want to go to the concert they're having in Toronto tomorrow night with me.

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 23:06:56 -0400

If you don’t like Miss Sassy, don’t ask stupid questions that call for me to be like that. But you definitely should bother asking me, because I want to go.

Hey, DeSousa. You still like Dead Hand, right?

Mon, 02 Jul 2012 22:31:21 -0400

Of course I do. That’s not even a question, Goldsworthy.